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Saturday, December 10, 2011

The Peak






I was one of those weird people who liked high school. I had lots of friends, and we had lots of fun. Then I got to college and I wasn't so much a fan at first. Sure, I made friends my first couple of years (friends I still have today) but it wasn't as great as everyone said it was going to be. And I was afraid. Afraid I was one of those people who peaked in high school, and the rest was all downhill for them. Of course, I got a job as an RA on the opposite site of campus, made more friends, and found my niche. And life was good.

After graduating, I hit a pretty rough patch. Someone once asked me why exactly that tough time occurred. And I can't pinpoint it to one single thing... It was just a ton of little things that weren't going my way and I felt like I couldn't catch a break. And I was sad. Really sad. I felt like I was drowning. My college friends had moved on and I didn't have many people to turn to. It was bad. And I was scared I was one of those people who'd peaked in college and the rest was downhill for them. But I found my niche at work and some great friends, and things were good again.

When I accepted a district level position a few years ago, I was in for a big change. I didn't see my friends as often and for a brief period, I could feel myself slipping again. But I worked my way out of it, and the past year has been pretty great. And today, I realized I have a different outlook. I thought this past year was the best year I'd had... That I'd peaked. But as I am about to enter into the last year of my Early 30's, I realize this life I have NOW is better than what I had before. There's no monumental change from before. I'm just living. Going places. Doing things. Enjoying time with all my friends.

If this is the peak, I think I'm ok with that. I can't imagine life getting much better than this. Then again, I though that last year too. So maybe the best is still yet to come.

2 comments:

emsmom said...

I feel ya. For me, I notice I always want things to stay as they are even if I am moving to a new job, new place, making a big change in my life. I want to add something new but everything else stay the same and that doesn't always happen and it takes me a while to adjust.

Christopher Cool said...

I see similarities in my course, and I see differences.

For instance, in my late teens I thought the world belonged to me. I thought everything would be up and up and UP.

Then (through my own poor decisions, bad behavior, and general immaturity) my life exploded/crashed/burned/nuked-out/[insert tragic metaphor here].

I thought I had blown my chance at a "happy life" and that I would endure only misery for the rest of my days.

But, as you well know, God has strange and unusual plans for us.

The last dozen years or so, I have been climbing back up, like you said in your post.

Right now, I can't freaking BELIEVE how good my life is, compared to how it was 20 yrs ago.

I am proud of you and how on top of things you are. I think that every single time I ever talk to you. If I haven't said so before, then ... there it is! :-)