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New traditions

I've had the same stocking since my first Christmas but not this year because mom can't find it.
I always have new pajamas to wear on Christmas Eve but not this year because Santa apparently underestimated the size of my thighs.
I'm not a fan of these new traditions... Merry Christmas. I truly hope yours is better than mine.

Almost there...

2 and a half more hours... 2 and a half more hours... 2 and a half more hours... 2 and a half more hours...2 and a half more hours... 2 and a half more hours...

Bookends

Year 30: Day 1-Stomach bug. Birthday celebration cancelled. Spent all night throwing up. Not fun.

Year 30: Day 365-Power goes out 10 minutes before I need to get ready. House starts to get really cold really quickly. Take a quick shower in the dark, and wait for the sun to come up to put my makeup on. Not fun.

I think I'm ready for 31 now.

How Do I Love D? Let me count the ways...

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My Dad-If you know him, you understand. If you don't, allow me to introduce you him: God fearing, believer in the power of prayer, generous, helpful, selfless, ridiculously Head Over Heels in love with my Mom, protector, funny, loves life, loves his kids, Mr. Fix It, secret cash giver, sports fan, former UK Basketball player. Best. Dad. Ever. Every year when I am shopping for his birthday or Father's Day card, I stand in Hallmark and read all of the sappy ones and cry. I'm so lucky to have him in my life. Disney Movies--It may be childish, it may be girly, but I. Love. Disney. Movies. More the classics than the new ones... There is something about knowing that someone actually sat and drew each minute change of each scene. (Those of you who went to see a Disney movie with me circa the Aladdin/Beauty and the Beast time frame know that my sister was friends with an animator, and we always had to stay after and find his name in the credits.)Dukes of Hazzard--Man I LOVE…

It's beginning to feel alot like Christmas...

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Maybe it's because I put my tree up...
...maybe it's the Pine candle my mom bought me to make up for the fact that I couldn't find a real tree that I loved this year, maybe it's because I actually ordered Christmas cards for the first time ever...


maybe it's the Christmas music I am listening to on iTunes...












maybe it's because this is the wallpaper on my computer right now (one of my favorite pictures EVER) or maybe it's that it's finally cold outside, but I am really feeling Christmas-sy! And I love it!

This episode of Happiness is brought to you by the Letter C...

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As I begin the third in the things that make me happy series, I can't help but hear Cookie Monster singing "C is for Cookie, that's good enough for me!" and while I do partially agree with that (who doesn't love a good Oreo--or three--and milk?), there is much more that makes me happy that starts with the letter C. So, for your viewing pleasure, here we go (in no particular order)Carbs-Bread, pasta, refined sugar. I'll take it all! If I had to be on the Adkins diet, I think I would commit suicide. Life without carbs is a life not worth living...Confidence-I'd say that for the better part of the last decade, I didn't have one ounce of the stuff, but now I do so Watch out World! I never want to go back...College GameDay-Especially the football version. While I love my Cats and there is nothing like spending the day at Commonwealth Stadium with 70,000 of my friends, I also love when it's an away game and I can curl up on the couch with my coffee…

A Month of ME!

Since I was consumed with the stomach flu on my 30th birthday, and never really got a chance to celebrate, I have decided that I will spend the last 30 days of being 30 celebrating! Yesterday I went to dinner with Nicole, a great friend who I don't get to see nearly as much as I'd like, and tonight I am playing Bunko. Saturday there will be Game Night, and Sunday is still to be decided. But I think this will be really fun!

You can't make this stuff up...

Setting: Erin’s office
Participants: Erin; Jimmy (her boss)
Time: 12:35
Setting the scene: Jimmy has come into Erin’s office to help her with a problem on a web program they use that he is very familiar with. They begin discussing that afternoon’s training:

Jimmy: I am so busy today. I have a meeting at 2 that I need to go prep for, and another meeting at 3:50. And then what time is your training?
Erin: Umm, YOUR training is at 4. (slowly realizes he said he has a meeting at 3:50)... WAIT! Am I giving this training? I thought you were giving it!
Jimmy: I thought you were giving it...
Erin: I don’t know how to do what the training is about yet. You haven’t taught me.
Jimmy: I can’t get out of that meeting today. I’ll email you directions, you might want to see if you can figure it out before the training starts...

Erin (to herself): I. Need. A. Drink.

Stupid serving size...

My parents stopped by my house on their way to pick up a friend at the Louisville airport, where my mom left my favorite homemade pastry on my kitchen counter. (Crescent roll crusts, cream cheese inside, cinnamon and sugar on top--Yum!) When I got home from work, I ate what I thought was a reasonable amount (especially considering I could eat the entire pan), a little less than an eighth of the pie pan. I mean, if it really WAS a pie, wouldn't you cut it into eight pieces? Then I went to the Kraft website to find the nutrition information (because apparently I am glutton for punishment) and was pleasantly suprised that it was only 170 calories. Then I noticed that the recipe makes 24 servings. Are you kidding me? I want to meet the person who can only eat 1/24 of that yummy flakey cream cheesy goodness. Now I feel like I need to do some cardio or something. How fast do I need to click the buttons on the remote in order to burn calories?

Oh, the little things make all the difference

I love sports (I know you're all thinking "Really?"), but I don't always love when life throws me a curveball... But you know what makes it all better? Panera Bread for lunch. No, seriously. Try it. Have a bad couple of days, and then go to Panera. You just can't be sad here, the food is too good!!! Plus, just the fact that I get to leave during lunch is fantastic for this former teacher!

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I had a not so fantastic week, so I thought another happiness entry would make me feel better!
Basketball--Not now so much, I don't like to cross over my seasons, but come this winter, all they way until March (hopefully) even April, I can't get enough of my Cats. And when it's March Madness, I could watch basketball all day. In fact, when I was still a classroom teacher, I wrote a unit called March Madness Math for the sole purpose of getting to watch the games at work! I even got Lindsay to teach it too, and if you know Lindsay, that's a tribute to my persuasiveness, because she hates sports and math! =)
The Beach-Once a year, I need to feel the sand between my toes, put my feet in the water, close my eyes, and just breathe it all in. It really does wonders for the soul!
Books-Old, new, I don't care. I love the way they smell, I love where they take me, I just love them!
Brad Paisley-Funny, cute, musical, the whole package!
Bon Jovi-Some childhood crushes only ge…

Fall Break

I had plans to DO something this Fall Break. I considered going back to Annapolis, going to NC to see my sister, or even just hopping in the car and going to Gatlinburg for a few days. However, an unexpected expense hit my savings account hard, and I just thought it was impractical that I go somewhere. And you know what, I've LOVED this fall break! I got all of my "Fall Break To Do" list (switching out summer clothes for winter ones, cleaning the house, etc) on Sunday so the whole week has just been relaxing, watching some trashy tv and lots of McD's cokes (I'm determined to win the monopoly game!) I realized I don't need to go anywhere or do anything special to have a good break. If you've read my blog for long (or simply read any of the older posts) you know that I've had my struggles with myself and my life, but now I really am happy. And this week to just be off and enjoy life has been fantastic.

The ABCs of Happiness-A

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So I am totally stealing this idea from a blogging friend, but I told her I was, so that makes it okay, right? =) I am going through the alphabet listing things with that letter that make me happy. Today I am starting with A (which is a very good place to start if you ask me!)A Autumn (my friend)-Makes me laugh, fills me in on why it's great to be me (ie I don't have to use the garden hose to spray puke out of a car seat), always there for me, loves me even though sometimes I like to talk about sports. She's the greatest. Autumn (the season)-Football, hooded sweatshirts, long-sleeved t-shirts, tailgating, apple cider, Fall Break, crisp smell of cool fall air, sleeping with the windows open... It's my most favoritest season of all. Apples-sliced, whole, caramel, plain, red, yellow, Granny Smith. I don't care. I love apples. Apple pie-Fresh out of the oven with ice cream on top. Wow! Apple cider-A hot mugful on a cool night, nothin' better. Alias -Didn't get h…

True Blue Fan

Planning to watch UK play Florida tomorrow. Look for me on TV. I'll be the one in the East Endzone who is there until the last minute, even though there's an 80% chance that it will rain .75-1 inch and we are three touchdown underdogs. I don't care. =)

My name isn't Grace

Completely wiped out on my way into my building today (in front of my boss and a coworker). It was rainy and I guess I missed the mat when I stepped in on the tile floor. BAM! Right down on my left knee. My hands were full, which may have actually been a blessing because I surely don't want another broken wrist... What an eventful three days. I am glad I didn't leave the house yesterday. Who knows what would've happened? =)

It's nice to be appreciated!

I've gotten several emails this week from colleagues and superiors commending me on a job well done. I love feeling apprecaited!
On another note, I taught a lesson to a high school class today. I was a nervous wreck. But they're just 10 year olds in bigger bodies!

Be careful what you ask for...

Paula Deen prayed for a new neighbor and got a husband. I prayed for a new neighbor and got...a new neighbor. Who slams doors in the morning. And watches really loud TV all hours of the night. Be careful what you ask for. I'm just sayin'...

Wow, I love my job...

I am better now. 100% happy for my friends, and 100% content with my life. What caused this shift? I love my job that much. No really. I'm serious. Seriously...

Weebles wobble but they don't fall down...

(reference previous post about being happy for the first time in a long time...)

I'm currently teetering a line between being really happy for three friends with BIG news (two engagements & a baby), and feeling sorry for myself because I'm honestly beginning to think those things really won't ever happen for me. But I'm learning to be happy with what I have, not sad about what I don't.

Lovin Life

As summer unofficially comes to an end this Labor Day weekend, I reflect on my summer. And I have to say, it was fantastic. Jenny got married, J had a baby, and I am happier now than I have been in a L-O-N-G time. I LOVE my new job. Everything about it. And I truely feel God is using it to open doors that I never imagined. The fear that I'd lose touch with my friends was completely unfounded. In fact, I am closer to some of them than I've ever been. And I love my coworkers. EVERYONE is friendly and I've never ONCE felt bad about myself in my new position. When I think back to how I struggled over this decision, I am so thankful that I closed my eyes and took a leap of faith. I'm pleased with how far I've come and I'm really starting to feel happy--really happy with my life.

Change is easy in small steps...

So my mission last week went fairly well. It helped that I wasn't around my friends who continue to put themselves down over and over (and over). So I've decided that I will change my attitude by adding one more positive thing every week. This week, every time I look in the mirror, I have to find a new positive thing about myself. This one might be more difficult, but I'm trying!

Tuesday Updates (that wouldn't update from my phone...)

I may have inadvertantly broken my fast. I was talking on the phone to
a friend today about needing new not-so-casual clothes for work now
because I don't have many nice things to wear. She responded with "I
thought you looked good today. I even told my mom that." As I was
literally dressed in a shirt I pulled out of a bag of Goodwill
donations and decided to give another shot, I responded with something
along the lines of "I thought I looked ridiculous."
The sad thing is, even with my meaningful determination to NOT put
myself down, I didn't even realize I'd said it until long after we
were off the phone. But that doesn't technically count, right? I mean
I could've said much worse...

Update #1

The first three days were a piece of cake. (which I could eat WITHOUT feeling bad about myself!) But, in all honesty, my Saturday and Sunday were pretty chill, as was my Monday. Today I will be hanging out with friends, so we will see how today goes. On an aside, I think I should have been keeping track of how often other women are putting themselves down. It's fascinating that no matter what women look like, we all do this. What is this about?
I'm on a mission. For one entire week, I refuse to say anything negative about myself. I was out tonight with several beautiful girls and most of them put themselves down at least one point in the night. And I believe strongly this will only get worse as time goes on, because tomorrow's generation is going to hear their moms saying all this horrible stuff about themselves. So no putting myself down for a week. And if I hear my friends doing it, I'm ignoring it. I'll keep you posted on my findings...
It is my vacation and I refuse to feel bad about myself! Only positive thoughts
New favorite quote. Very Sex and the City-esque, but it's actually from Bride Wars. Sometimes in life there really are bonds formed that can never be broken. Sometimes you really can find that one person who will stand by you no matter what. Maybe you'll find it in a spouse and celebrate it with your dream wedding, but there's also the chance that the one person you can count on for a lifetime, the one person who knows you sometimes better than you know yourself, is the same person who's been standing beside you all along.I realize how lucky I am to have that person. And so what if it's the friend and not the boy? As a real SATC quote says 'Maybe our girlfriends are our soulmates and guys are just people to have fun with.'
I know I can be mean and hateful, but as a general rule, I'm NOT mean and hateful. I'm a nice girl. I care about people. And I've got to think that eventually, karma will not only catch up to me and throw me a bone, but also catch up to the mean and hateful people out there and give them what they deserve. I understand that this isn't a very Christian thing to think, but these days, it's how I feel.
I forgot how good it feels to love myself! And for the past few days, I really have felt content with my life. Now, if I can just be strong enough to not let others bring me down!
To me, there is nothing any better than when a guy you think is attractive puts his hand on the small of your back to lead you somewhere. Or when you're talking to him and you just can't help but lay your hand on his chest as you say something. That little spark you feel, that's what I'm looking for. That's what I want.
Wedding was fantastic. Good friends, good food, great fun! Had some low moments, but all in all it was a great time. I love the bride like she was my own sister, so to be a part of her wedding was an honor. I wish we lived closer but I treasure every minute I get to spend with her!
I've decided that I like airports. It's not so much that I love flying (I go back and forth between being excited and terrified) but I'm an airport kind of girl. At the airport, you can just blend in. No one notices you, and if they do, they don't look at you funny because you're by yourself. Most people at airports ARE by themselves, and no one cares. I don't feel awkward, left out, or alone here. I like airports.
Lately I feel like my life is a reality show, kind of similar to the Bachelorette, but called "For the Love of Freaks & Rednecks." Except I'm not giving ANYONE a rose. I mean seriously, is it too much to ask for a normal guy? Or even slightly normal? Seriously? These are my choices? SERIOUSLY?!?!?!?

Decisions, decisions

I will hear about the district job I applied for sometime in the next few days.  I was apprehensive about the part time/full time thing, but I am leaning towards taking it either way.  I don't want to leave my school, and I will miss the kids, but I think if I pass up this opportunity, I will be kicking myself later.  I am praying for God's will to be done in this...
Feeling better today
More positive
More hopeful
Hopefully I'm out of my funk
Having another one of those "I don't fit in and I'll never really be happy" days. They are frequent lately. I know I've been happy before but I can't really remember what that feels like. I thought this blog was going to be a happy blog, but I'm just not feeling it these days.
I'm sad again today for some reason. Well, I guess several reasons: the uncertainty at work is about to do me in, I'm sick of "friends" that aren't really friends, and I feel like I don't fit anywhere...
A day full of lots of fun and laughs, but at the end of it I'm still sad. Funny how one bad thing can make you feel so bad about yourself that it ruins your day... Especially when your model-esque friend can't stop talking about how she needs to lose weight, isn't pretty, etc. I don't need anyone else inadvertantly making me feel bad about myself. I can do it fine on my own thanks!
84 in April
Sitting on the patio
Cold beer in one hand and bug spray in the other
Feeling the sun warm me through and through
Life can't be all that bad
Everything is unsure
I feel like my life is spinning out of control
I don't know where I fit
I don't know where God wants me
I don't know what He wants me to do
I'm trying to listen to His voice
But my own thoughts and fears are drowning Him out...

I am alive....

So I haven't posted in forever. Here's the gist of what has happened. Fell on ice, broke wrist, surgery, 2 weeks of cast, six weeks of PT, horrible scar, still recuperating, still can't work out, haven't lost any more weight, destination wedding moved north, have to find new bridesmaid dress, don't like any i try on, HUGE education cuts mean not for sure what kind of job I will have in the fall, stressed about lots of stuff, miss my best friend who is too busy with new baby to chat as much, STILL SINGLE! :-0 Yep, that's about it...

Ice Storm 2009

This week, we had lots of ice and snow in Lexington, pretty much shutting down the entire city. On Thursday, I braved the elements to get some great pictures. Hope you enjoy!


About a Boy...

So there's this boy I used to know, thought he might be IT, you know "the one"?  Didn't work out, but I still think about him every now and then and maybe even send an e-mail once or twice a year.  Yesterday I found out that he is married, and I felt really sad.  Now I know this sounds a bit like a bad country song, but I'm going somewhere... I think I am living in the past, especially with boys.  Maybe it's too hard to meet someone, and quite possibly, deep down I am scared of rejection, and I think Hey, they liked me once, so even if they reject me now, it's not a complete rejection, because they didn't reject me before.  I don't want to be this girl.  I want to live for tomorrow, not yesterday.  I am ready for something new!